Part 21
The first thing that entered Ana’s mind as she awoke was that she wanted to see boobs. Massive pale ones with thick nipples. Titties to lay her head on and to squeeze. Titties for days. This bizarre thought lingered for a moment, both arousing, concerning and comforting at the same time. As she pushed the image and desire away, she quickly knew that something was wrong. Her panties were wet, but she was filled with relief, and while her period discharge likely would ruin her luxurious sheets, she knew at least she wasn’t pregnant.
The first thing she saw, however, was the new growth of hair on her legs. This completely derailed any sense of relief as she looked at the thick black hair that mingled like some unwanted guy on the dance floor with her silky blonde leg hair. Regardless of colour or thickness, she wanted none of it.
Her hormones were completely out of whack now, but she couldn’t simply stop exercising. It wasn’t an option. She had to continue to do her streams, and if she wanted to lose this weight, she had to work harder than she had ever worked before. What she needed was a different doctor. Hers clearly didn’t know what she was talking about.
She grimaced and then lifted her arms to stretch, noticing that her armpits felt scratchy. She stared wide eyed at the unruly bush of hair that had sprouted from her underarms.
What other absolutely terrible thing had happened overnight? She sighed heavily, knowing that she would have to spend the next 30-40 minutes shaving her body. Still, at least she wasn’t pregnant. She avoided looking at her legs as she explored the damage done to her comforter.
There wasn’t a speck of blood on her bed. “Damn. That’s lucky. I-I. Ugh. What the hell. Why is my upper lip so itchy?” A tentative finger touched one of the silky hairs that had pierced her formerly hairless upper lip.
At this point, Ana’s brain simply stopped working. Unlike other girls she had known growing up, she had never, ever had to shave her upper lip. Blessed with good genes and silky blonde hair, even puberty had been kind to Ana. While one of her darker haired friends had to wax her lip for the first year of high school, Ana’s biggest concern was the odd pimple.
She pulled at the hair on her lip, while still wearing a completely puzzled expression. Was her entire body chemistry changing? She groaned heavily, feeling exhausted despite what seemed like a good night’s sleep.
“I guess I’ll just change my underwear before starting this shave. Fuck! I’m going to have to do all of this at home. No one can see me like this. They’ll call me a fucking monkey.” Memories swirled in Ana’s mind. Memories of her calling her hairy friend a monkey behind her back.
She quickly got out of bed and moved to her bathroom. Again, trying not to look at the disaster that was her legs, she pulled her panties down, only to stare in shock at the complete lack of blood. She should have realized it sooner, especially with how sticky it felt against her skin.
A dainty finger pushed into one of the little globs of white goo.
"UGH...HOLY FUCK...WHAT IS THIS? DID I HAVE A WET DREAM?" She groaned in despair. Mostly, because she hadn’t seen any massive titties yet, but also because only perverts had wet dreams at her age. It was normal in puberty. And didn’t only guys have them? Still naked, she quickly retrieved her phone to look it up. Apparently, women her age did have them.
Her discharge was strange though, and according to Google, it could be a yeast infection, except for the fact that it was very sticky. Her body was a fucking mess, and she still hadn’t seen any titties. Today was starting off terribly. Worst of all, she had barely any energy for her morning swim. Or her ab workout, if she chose to do it in the morning. Plus, she needed to find time to look at some big fat titties and stroke one off.
“W-Wait, what am I thinking? No! I don’t want to do that! What is happening to me?! Why do I want to masturbate while looking at brea- bre- br- TITTIES! Oh fuck! N-No! I was so good. Didn’t ogle any girls at the gym all week. And I barely looked at those pictures that fat ugly slut sent me yesterday.”
But she hadn’t deleted them. They were still there on her phone. She could look at them. Mmm. She could probably even zoom in and make them fill her entire screen. Yes. Fuck yes! Massive pale white titties. She could just imagine them in her face. If she brought the phone super close to her face, it was like they were! Her clit suddenly rose to attention, begging to be touched.
'Ugh! Sick! N-No! Why am I turned on by this? What a fucking disgusting woman I am..these desires and these horrible changes are completely ruining my life. It’s no wonder I woke up so tired. I had fucking sex dreams all night probably!” A few tears ran down her striking yet very tired eyes, passing through the contours of her cheekbones.
You want to be tittyfucked.
She shrieked, her voice dropping in timbre as it trailed off, “No! No! I don’t. I just wanna see titties!”
Ana had boobs on the brain. As much as exercise, eating right, her health and beauty, her brand, men, and most of all herself had been the centre of her universe, it was clear something else was entering that universe, something that would not be denied.
Ana shuddered and thought, “Ugh! No, Ana. You are a beautiful, successful woman. You don’t have any interest in looking at hot f-fucking massive pale titties or j-jerking it to them. No! This is just a fucking phase...trust me Ana..there is nothing wrong with you, you are hot, every man wants you. Just shave and then get your ass in that pool!”
The shaving as always was humiliating. On her lip though, she used a waxing strip, which she hadn’t even bought. To find it, she had rummaged around in some gift bag she received from an event she had attended. It pulled at her pouty lip painfully, but it did the job.
Ana smiled at her reflection again, and while her normally vibrant eyes looked tired, her natural beauty shone through. These were small and larger bumps in the road, Ana thought. Just as she did before a huge swimmeet, Ana gave herself a rousing peptalk, “All you have to know girl is that you are the most famous fitness celebrity ever, that is what matters, you have control of your entire life. And there is nothing...NOTHING that can beat you down...NOTHING!" Again, Ana smiled, although it was a half-grimace as well as the razor, again from her gift bag, struggled to remove the thicker black hair from her legs and pits.
The wet dream in her bed made Ana feel uncomfortable- unclean, so she quickly changed the sheets. As she changed the linen, she failed to notice the small nest of fallen silky blonde hair on her pillow case. Now, she felt like she was on the right path. There was order and control to what she was doing. If she could convince her mind, she knew her body would follow suit. Disliking the idea of getting into her pool unclean, she quickly ran a bath, filling it with calming scented oils.
What she didn’t realise as she luxuriated in the bath was that the offending hair on her upper lip returned. It didn’t have the wispy quality of a pathetic moustache sported by a teenage boy that it had before. And while it didn’t regrow to its previous length, tiny black, scratchy stubble pushed through Ana’s pores. As Ana relaxed in the bath, she pictured her body back the way it had been before, her abs looking stunning and defined. This was her goal. Her end game to return to perfection. Despite her stomach growling for food, she still had another few hours to go in her intermittent fasting to have the meagre amount of calories she had allotted to herself.
Ana was serious today. No bikini for her swim. She was going to break her previous record, and she would do it in her old suit from her competitive swimming days. It was going to be a fuck you to the urges and to her body, a body that had failed her recently. Her entire body trembled with excitement as she saw the crystal surface of the pool.
The suit, which was skintight, fit a little differently from what she remembered. It pinched at her upper arms and thighs, and instead of her abs, she could just see the outline of her flat belly. However, all of this was simply motivation to get back what she had lost.
“YEAH BABY, time to do this! I need this so fucking badly.” She shouted. As her pool was her sanctuary from prying eyes, she never filmed her workouts, but she did take a quick selfie in her swimsuit with the caption “Getting serious around here.” She pulled her swim cap over her beautiful golden hair.
She said, “I am sure those perverted simps would love to watch me swim, but it’s not happening. They'll just have to enjoy this picture of perfection.”
As Ana dove into the pool, the picture produced a multitude of comments. Most of them were positive, but several were questioning what looked like stubble on her upper lip. Most argued that it was a trick of the light. After all, how could one of the most beautiful women in the world be growing a moustache? Worse still, Ana had forgotten to flex her stomach. Thankfully, she wasn’t wearing a bikini, but the fact that the fitness celebrity’s abs, for which she was known, had simply vanished, even her most ardent defenders had difficulty coming up with arguments explaining that.
Normally, Ana would have carefully chosen the best picture, the one with all the right angles, and certainly not the one where she had zero abs and stubble, but needing a pick me up from this morning’s horrifying discovery, she had neglected to look over them before posting.
Ana quickly entered a zone that only competitive athletes can access. Her breathing and technique were flawless. Most swimmers, Ana included, would argue that the 200 metre butterfly was the most difficult stroke. It wasn’t an all-out sprint. No, it was eight laps of butterfly. Swimmers had to avoid any bursts of speed or use of unnecessary energy in the first half of the race.
Through the first half, Ana had been perfect. She hadn’t sped. Her dolphin kicks were majestic- beautiful. Her arm movements, the pull, push and recovery, had been flawless. This is exactly what she needed. And if competitive swimming paid the bills, she would have done this instead of being a fitness influencer.
Of course, the young woman was lying to herself. No, she loved and craved the adoration of her followers and the simps that lusted over her body. The millions of women and men out there who jealously stared at a body that could never have in the bedroom or in their own skin, she adored the idea of their eyes burning into her taut frame. Of course, none of them worked as hard as she did. None.
Halfway through her fifth lap, Ana started to feel a cramp in her abdominals. Considering she hadn’t had a bite to eat, this was concerning. It was also a concern because it had never happened before. Ever. Ana’s abdominals had been working to stabilise her body through her kicks. The sudden tightness derailed this, and the kicks became more stilted and much less fluid. As she finished her fifth lap, Ana’s abdominals were on fire. She pushed through the cramping, forcing her body to comply through the sixth lap.
Her body responded with burning in her shoulder and leg muscles. As she persisted, entering the seventh lap, her back muscles seized suddenly, throwing her completely off. She stopped completely, simply floating, her mouth agape. With a grimace, she resumed her swim, her back muscles continuing to tighten as she did.
Nothing was making sense. The 200m butterfly was her stroke- her state champion stroke. Normally, she fell into such a groove that the movements felt effortless. She slowed her pace, focusing only on her technique and grimaced, nearly crying as her back and stomach muscles tightened further. Her coach in college had always told her that if it hurt- she was doing something wrong. But it never did. Until today.
She exited the water defeated.
Now, she knew why some of her teammates had called it the 200m cry. She ripped off her swim cap and threw it on the patio stone, not realising that as she did, a large clump of her beautiful blonde hair went with it. She stomped toward the bathroom, not understanding how an athlete like her could lose her fitness so quickly. Could she really be pushing herself too much? Would she have to cancel her stream today?
She would lose more followers and the #CANCELANAFIT hashtag would probably spread even more. She couldn’t admit that she was hurt. She groaned heavily, not noticing how her voice dipped an octave as she did.
She fled to the refuge that was her Insta, looking for an instant pick me up from her followers who were undoubtedly gushing praise on her picture taken before her swim. She entered a maelstrom.
“Someone apparently forgot to wax and BLEACH!”
“Where’d her abs go? I mean that suit is skintight. How come there’s no lines or whatever? Trick of the light?”
“I like hairy chicks, but I stop at a fucking moustache. I was platinum and those pics are fucking hot, but after seeing her lip hair. Fuck. I can’t fap to that. Unsubscribed.
“Isn’t this site supposed to be about diet and exercise? Getting fit? Y’all need to leave her alone and get your asses in gear.”
“AnaFIT has entered the chat. LOL. Where’d your abs go, or are those airbrushed too like your lip?”
As Ana scrolled through the comments, her knees buckled under her. Her head swam, and she fell forward, but thankfully, she managed to grasp onto a patio chair and pull herself to her feet. How could she have been so stupid not to check the picture before posting? She always checked. Checked the angle, the lighting, and deleted any unflattering pictures. Well this was fucking unflattering!
She had needed to enter her safe place- the water. She had needed to enter it so badly that she rushed it. However, like the gym, the crystalline surface before her was just another reminder of a failure. Still, she always checked! What was wrong with her?
How could she even explain this? And her lip? It was so itchy. She found herself constantly pushing up her lips in an effort to scratch it without actually touching it. It was prickly and driving her crazy! It hadn’t bothered her in the water, but now that the air was on it, it itched incessantly. How could she damage control this? Be honest? She needed to speak to her publicist. Maybe hormone imbalance and water weight from her period?
A period which still hadn’t come. The memory of the goo she found in her panties struck her hard. The strange white colouration that was a potential sign of a yeast infection. She started to feel more and more shame and embarrassment over her appearance and the state of her brand and overall fitness.
Her clitoris sprung to life, forming a firm indentation against the super tight swimsuit.
“No…why am I horny?” It made no sense. Being depressed about her state of being never turned her on before. Usually, if she was feeling stressed, she would exercise, but after her failure in the pool, she wasn’t in a hurry to try that again. Still, exercise had been the cure before. But what if she failed again? Or really hurt herself to the point she couldn’t exercise at all? Or stream? Her mind was moving in a million different directions, which was completely uncharacteristic for someone who thrived on control and balance.
She quickly stripped out her swimsuit and got on the scale. At least she would reap the rewards of her careful diet and near constant exercise. She had to be down at least a pound today. The scale had to give her at least some good news.
"I..I..I.I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT, FUCK YOU FUCK YOOOOUUU!!!" She shouted and stomped her foot down on the scale.
“How the fuck did I gain three more pounds? Overnight” She was nearing 130 lbs. None of it made sense. Eat less and exercise. Unless there was something wrong with her thyroid? Fuck. That could really derail things. Her clitoris trembled with anticipation, desperately wanting to be touched. That pleasure she had felt in the jacuzzi, but most importantly in her car. The immense, mind-blowing pleasure when she had pictured Julie’s titanic titties. Mmm. Black Kitten had even nicer titties. Bigger too. It was fun to fantasise about older women, but she really preferred girls her age. Fucking. Yes. Her makeup was hot too. Alt-girls were fucking hot.
Feel bad? Jack it. It makes everything go away. And if you keep doing it, you never have to feel anything. No shame. No humiliation. You’ll never feel bad about anything. Just pleasure while picturing yourself surrounded by massive pale white titties. You want it. Fuck yourself to sleep.
“I've been training like a complete maniac, barely eating. Working out like 5 times a fucking day. WHAT IS THIS FUCKING RESULT? THIS IS WHAT I’VE GOT TO SHOW FOR IT? NOT LOSING A SINGLE FUCKING POUND BUT GAINING EVEN MORE DISGUSTING FAT....!!" She shrieked, her pouty lips wrinkling in clear revulsion to her plight as she pulled at the skin at her abdomen, noticing how much thicker the skin was. It was like her skin had grown an additional layer, but it didn’t feel like just fat as it was rougher to the touch.
Her head was pounding as her clit, which now hung slightly outside of her vaginal lips, beckoned her finger. Again. Again. Again. Again. Feel that kaleidoscope of pleasure, a body thrumming to be touched. Make the shame go away. Again. Again. Again. Think of nothing but touching yourself, getting off over and over.
Ana peered at herself in the mirror, hating what she was doing- so like her mother, looking for every little imperfection, but unable to stop. Even though it had only been less than an hour since she had shaved, she could see prickly hair piercing the tanned flesh of her legs. Her ankles and calves were the worst with clear stubble, and like her lip, the formerly smooth skin was itchy.
She let out a deep sigh as she tore her eyes away from the offending hair, only to see additional prickly stubble above her upper lip. OK. That’s an issue. Her beautiful golden hair. Yes, it was as lustrous as ever. She took her brush, intending to calm herself by stroking her long gorgeous locks of hair. Wait? Was it darker? As she started brushing, her eyes widened in fear as she watched the brush, which usually had a little difficulty passing through, pulling a copious amount of hair from her scalp. Even as she watched the brush fill with hair, she found herself watching in horror as a few strands of hair fell directly from her scalp. She pulled at her hair in horror. Part of it felt dull, lifeless. She had more than a few split ends and parts of it just felt dead, as if she had bleached her hair at some cheap salon.
"FUCK! HOW…HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? I did my hot oil treatment yesterday at the spa and the week before. I always massage conditioner into the ends to keep it soft. And what the fuck, how am I losing so much hair??”
She stomped toward her bed, and scoured the area where she lay her head. To Ana’s continued horror, she found strands of fallen, lifeless, frankly dead hair next to her pillow. Way more than was normal. She watched even as she was standing there as more hair fell from her head.
Her clit was still throbbing, begging to be touched. It was worse as her nakedness made access to it so much easier. You look terrible. You’re losing your hair and you are getting fat, but the pleasure makes it all go away. Touch yourself until you forget, then do it again. And again. AGAIN. The shame you feel- it will burn away in a sea of titties.
Despite being tremendously aroused, her pussy lips slickened with her juices, her nipples did not react accordingly. The cute little pink nipples on her modest breasts didn’t harden in the least.
Touch yourself. Touch yourself. Touch yourself! Black Kitten’s tits. Her belly in her lap, in that chair, her body just spilling out of it. Too much to handle. Picture it and fuck yourself until you don’t feel ANYTHING. She moved back to the bathroom.
'Mmm...so horny! T-T-Titties. Mmm. Make it go away…t-touch myself.” Her voice was breathy as her heartbeat accelerated. She stumbled back against the wall of her luxurious bathroom, her feet slipping on the marble floor as she slowly slid down. Her naked ass touched the stone, even as her clitoris was practically on fire. She could hear a steady stream of notifications from her phone. She pushed her legs together, not trying to avoid the pleasure, but trying to find a way to do it without touching herself. That would be failure. Picturing Black Kitten and her incredible titties and pretty tattoos while she touched herself- that would be failure.
“Ugh, it’s probably more people saying horrible things about me. I need to– mmmuuugh! I n-need to…f-fucking look at t-t-titties.” She looked down and that same prickly stubble had sprouted in her pubic area. It looked nothing like the soft blonde downy she had before she began her electrolysis. And still, her clit throbbed.
Shame. Humiliation. You are nothing. Disgusting, ugly and fat. No one will ever want to touch you. Only fucking yourself brings you any pleasure- any happiness. Jerk it. Just close your eyes and touch yourself while picturing the most perfect pair of massive pale white titties.
Picture them in your hands. Squeezing them. They are too big for just one hand. The titty flesh just spills out, but they are firm and enormous. So heavy. You lift one and smell, taking a huge whiff, and it smells so good. You almost cum right there. Yes. Yes. Yes. More. More. Now they are in your face.
A phantom hand, but still one controlled by one of the most famous fitness influencers in the world, began to steadily stroke the pulsating clitoris. The touch sent electric shots of pleasure throughout the sides of her enlarged clitoris, images of Black Kitten and her almost discarded bra filling her mind. As she pictured Black Kitten, the pleasure was enhanced, intensifying particularly just below the hardened tip of her engorged clit.
In less than a minute, she was screaming and thrashing on the floor. Sticky white fluid pulsed from her vagina as she climaxed, quickly mixing with her regular discharge and diluting the gooey whitish glob. She couldn’t help but notice that the globs were more prominent, and that there was less of her usual discharge.
A deep and immeasurable shame descended on Ana in conjunction with a tragic desire to do it all again.
And she did.
The second time, she imagined herself licking Black Kitten’s nipples. The third time, she pictured her hands gripping the young woman’s doughy sides and kissing her belly, worshipping it. Each time, it took her less time to climax and each time, the shame ran deeper. And still, Ana chased that feeling of euphoria, the voice which told her she would feel better.
She never did, but still, she chased it.