by nniuqs » Sat Oct 28, 2017 2:39 am
I finally had time to look through the stories I've saved years back, here's the one I think you wanted
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The Remaking of Donald Carson
By Sharonna
PROLOGUE: THE PAST
Three months ago Officer Donald Carson, while investigating a late-
night burglary at Women's Hospital on his beat in the quiet Southern city of
Gulfport, Mississippi, sustained a slight injury. He had pricked a hand on a
hypodermic needle left carelessly on a desk by one of the lab technicians.
He reported the accident, and the hospital proceeded to determine the
contents of the syringe.
The next afternoon he awoke sick in a feverish delerium, soaked with
sweat. After a few days on antibiotics the fever eased, and he felt passably
well.
On Friday when he and his partner, Derrick Jeter, reported to work
the second shift, the watch lieutenant instructed him to see the chief of police.
The chief, Commander Johnetta Washington, ordered me to sit down.
She was a damned capable chief. Ms. Washington had led the department for
years now. But I could see her attractive dark face was troubled. Sitting by
her desk was another middle-aged black woman whom I didn't know. She
was wearing an expensive-looking business suit that revealed shapely brown
legs with mid-heeled sensible shoes.
'Don, there's been a terrible accident. Have you heard of the
Community Service program?'
Of course I had, and what accident? I was confused.
She went on as I was thinking. Indicating the woman on her right,
she said, 'Don, this is Doctor Malika Ajaratu, from New York. The serum
contained in the hypo that broke your skin last week was part of a shipment
for use on local prisoners, and as the director of Community Service she
came here to establish the program in our jurisdiction. Those criminals so
sentenced will receive DNA rehabilitation at Women's Hospital in Gulfport.'
I slumped in my chair. I was beginning to add it up.
'Officer Carson,' the doctor began in a pleasant voice, 'There is
nothing life- threatening about your condition. The samples were out for
testing and were not properly stored. It is extremely regrettable, and of
course full generous compensation will be made to you.'
I began to get angry.
'You mean there's nothing you can do about it?'
'If we had administered a full blood exchange within hours of the
incident, we might have been able to remove the viruses along with the
blood. As it is, your body is now undergoing irrevocable changes.'
'Whose DNA was it?'
'A healthy, twenty-year old African female, though she was born
here, whose parents immigrated from Mali, in west Africa, in 1972. They
were members of the Yoruba tribe -'
I groaned. 'That's enough. I'm going to be an African girl?'
'I'm afraid so, Officer Carson,' she replied. 'African-American,
technically. You'll still be a U.S. citizen.'
'Thanks a lot,' I said bitterly.
I consented to admission to Woman's Hospital for a full workup and
monitoring. The chief put me on an immediate leave of absence.
The doctor found that my weight was already ten pounds less than
last week, and I seemed to be getting a tan, although we all knew what that
meant.
I admitted to her that I hadn't had an erection since shortly after the
accident. She examined my penis and testicles with a plastic-gloved hand.
My penis was embarrassingly small and soft, and my testes seemed to have
shrunk already. She had me bend over, and performed a rectal and prostate
exam with her middle finger. After a few moments of her skillful
manipulation deep in my rectum, my tiny dick suddenly stiffened to its new
maximum length of a couple of inches, and I gasped as a few drops of pale
semen spurted out.
'Well, that's it, young man. Your seminal vesicles are shrinking, as I
thought, and their final production of male fluids has just been expelled. You
are now sterile. Of course, in a few months you will be very fertile again, if
you understand the nature of the transformation process.
'I'm afraid your days as a stud are over, Officer Carson, but there's
no reason why you won't be able to bear many healthy children. Of course,
their hereditary traits will be very different from yours.
I can only estimate the time of transition, but you should look like a
clone of your donor in less than three months. The solution was for testing
only, and was not full strength. That simply means the transformation will
be gradual, rather than overnight.'
My donor. She made it sound like I had an ordinary blood
tranfusion.
Saying that there wasn't much more the medical profession could do
for me, The doctor released me. Chief Washington summoned me back to
her office. This time three of our black female police officers were present. I
knew them from roll calls, but had not worked with any of them.
'Don,' she began, I'd like to introduce Sergeant Angela Powell,
Inspector Sondra Berry, and Patrolwoman Cheryl Williams-Burton.
We nodded our greetings.
'I've briefed them on your accident. They are not to discuss it with
anyone, and no one else in the department will know.
'Then why them, with all due respect, Chief.'
'Doctor Ajaratu advised me that you would need assistance with your
transition, especially with one of a gradual nature. She explained sensibly
that you will have to learn many new things, and we can't leave you on your
own.'
'Don,' Sergeant Powell spoke up. She was uncommonly attractive,
like all three of the women. I wondered if I would look like any of them.
'We're going to be here for you. Think of us as your support group.
If you think about it, you'll need help with clothes, hair care, and everything
to do with your appearance. Then there's the psychological aspect. You
need friends now, and have to learn to relate to women in a whole new way.'
I supposed all that was true. Sergeant Powell said herself or the other
officers would spend some time with me every day. I stocked up on
groceries on the way home and prepared to ride this weird thing out.
In spite of myself, I found it fascinating, in a humiliating way, to
watch my body change day by day. I continued to lose weight, but fat was
replacing muscle. Not excess, obese fat, but the soft upholstered contours of
a grown woman's body. My skin softened as it darkened, and I seemed to
grow a slight layer of new padding everywhere, even on the tops of my
hands and the back of my neck. Only my butt and thighs really plumped up,
and my belly sported a new layer of fat on top of abdominal muscles that had
loosened into a soft cradle.
My belly button peeked out of its fatty bed. Sondra explained that
nature protected a woman's babymaker.
The female identation above my hips had arrived, pinching me in at
the waist and creating an hourglass figure.
Looking carefully in the mirror I could see even my skeletal structure
had reconstituted, becoming markedly female. My shoulders were narrower,
hips wider, and hands and feet smaller, my fingers longer and tapering.
The real wonder was my face. It was like watching a very slow-
motion morph of a caucasian male to an African female. My cheekbones
grew wide and prominent, my eyes almond-shaped and exotic, and my lips
thickened to classic Nubian loveliness. Kissable, I thought one day. I had
never thought my old thin lips were that before!
My skin did the same, gradually passing from a tan to a mixed-race
beige to African black. My color stopped darkening at a pleasant milk
chocolate, but there was nothing superficial about it. Close examination
showed that the deep undertones of the black race formed the base of my skin
color now. This was no sun or chemical tan.
Only the palms of my hands and soles of my feet retained a relative
light color, but gained a baby-softness in exchange.
My hair, soon to be a source of pride as well as frustration and
expense (you have to be a black lady to understand!), grew out fast and
coarse. My slightly receding hairline of thinning sandy brown hair reversed
itself, and a wild mass of black curls recolonized my now slightly smaller
head. I had the thick tresses of an African-American high school girl now.
I felt invisible changes too. I don't mean internally, though I knew
that after my tiny penis and testes were absorbed into my body, a deep love
tunnel had burrowed into my abdomen, leading to a babymaker with a
lifetime supply of female eggs.
That was something to think about!
I mean that the flat, blunt male anger at my change had become
something more complex. My feelings about it ranged from a brittle, edge-
of-tears quality to a kind of sedated contentment. I knew that female
hormones were altering my very brain itself. Only time would tell what kind
of woman I would make, and what chance for happiness I would have.
And I wondered just how large my breasts were going to get! First
my chest hair had come off like the fuzz from a dandelion, and skin across
my pectorals, as everywhere, began to slowly soften and darken. My chest
muscles shrunk and flattened to feminine insignificance. My little male
nipples grew hot and irritable, and spread and darkened from pink to almost
black, until they were nearly three inches across and with protruding porous
erectile tips. Well, at least I would still get erections somewhere, on my
nipples! The inevitable mounds of fatty mammary tissue accumulated under
them. Every day my breasts, I could see that is what they clearly were,
appeared larger, slowly growing from a teenage girl's modest cones and
taking on the distinctive heavy contours of a mature woman's bosom. It was
as if I were rapidly going through puberty, but female this time. They
projected outward further from my chest and began to sag slightly as they
gained weight. In little more than a month no garment could hide them, even
the baggiest sweatshirt. I was a big-titted sister now.
When it appeared their growth had slowed (stopped?) after two
months, Cheryl took me to a lingerie store in the mall. In the changing room
an older black sales clerk took out her tape measure and I tried on my first
bra. I was a size 40DD! Of all the DNA I could have gotten jabbed with, I
had to get taken over by the genes of some 'thick girl,' as the black guys say.
I would know the discomfort (and male attention) that a well-endowed
women has to live with for the rest of my life.
My ass now wobbled alarmingly when I walked. My hips had
widened, even the pelvic structure changing, and my buttocks had
transformed into two great well- defined globes of muscle and fat with a deep
crease between them. I owned the classic black woman's bootie now, a big
comfortable African cushion attached to me permanently. I knew the purpose
of a large backside was sexual enticement, and I noticed the black guys on the
block, in my rare trips outside, watching my cheeks roll and tremble as I
walked, no matter how I tried to restrain them. These days they could enjoy
me coming and going, now that my rear had developed to compliment my big
titties. What the gender-bending mad scientists had done to me!
And I pondered one day, I would pass all these traits on to my female
children, and many of them, like skin color and hair, on to my sons. My
new girlfriends tried to soothe me on that score. What, after all, was wrong
with being black, Cheryl asked? Was I a racist? I assured her I wasn't.
Well, honey, you can prove it now, she said, and the three women laughed
and hugged me.
Still I regretted that my genetic inheritance had been stolen by the
crazy accident. Don Carson would never have offspring now. My children
would have the bloodline of foreign strangers, the genes of a black couple
from Mali, a country in west Africa that I had barely heard of, a marriage
which had borne a daughter in 1978, and I was becoming an identical twin of
that young woman. As a final indignity, I would have to bear these strange
children, not father them. My sleep was troubled by vivid dreams of black
babies growing large in my belly and forcing themselves out through my
awesomely stretched vagina as I howled in birth pain. Then, in the dream,
silence, followed by the healthy cry of a newborn.
I had to tell the whole unbelievable story to my old friend and partner,
Derrick Jeter. He was convinced only when I stripped to t-shirt and scant
running shorts and he took a good, incredulous look at my softening,
darkening body. He only had to check out my developing breasts and bootie
(which was on its way to resembling two basketballs), my tangled nappy hair
and wide nose to know the truth.
'Girl, you look better than my sister Maizie!' I took that as a
compliment.
I just wasn't 'just one of the guys' anymore, no matter how I tried. I
found that I had developed a kind of nesting instinct. Here's an example.
One day I was to stop at my partner Derrick's apartment for a beer. I was
early, so I let myself in with the key he leaves under the mat. The place was
a mess! Dishes in the sink, dirty clothes on the bedroom floor, and the carpet
needed vacuuming. Guess what? By the time he got in from work, I had ran
the dishes through the dishwasher, done three loads of laundry (folding and
ironing the clothes) vacuumed the floors, and was on my knees polishing the
hardwood floor in his bedroom when he walked in!
By this time I was well along in my metamorphosis. The baggy
sweatshirt I was concealing myself in couldn't hide my big breasts any
longer, and my black spandex running shorts now only served to show off
my spectacular rear end and big thick-girl caramel-brown thighs. Tangled
black tendrils hung down the sides of my damp face. Housecleaning is hard
work!
I felt ashamed, but Derrick smiled, lifted my chin and kissed me for
the first time, even if it was on the cheek. He smelled good, musky and
manly.
'Hey, Miss Thing!' he laughed. I could use you around here all the
time!'
I wish, I caught myself thinking. But it was embarrassing. I felt like
a girly-girl, caught cleaning my old friend's apartment. I deserved the
humiliation of a kiss from another man! We had that beer, even though he
had fun calling me 'Molly maid' for the rest of the evening while we watched
a pro basketball game on TV. I played along, serving the drinks and chips
and cleaning up like a good girl, even though it was his apartment. He
patted me on the behind, another first. Little did I know that cooking,
laundering and housekeeping for this guy (and our kids) would become my
life's work!
Of course Chief Washington tried to keep my 'transition,' as the
Community Service people called it, as quiet as possible, and she put a gag
order on the police force. But a couple of my old white buddies had heard
something, and I decided to get together with the boys for a little poker and
set things straight.
I wasn't going to do 'drag' and try to look like my old male self. I
put on a scoop-necked cream blouse and beige business-like skirt hemmed
above the knee, sheer brown nylons (mocha toast, the package said. I love
the names given to black women's pantyhose!), and 3-inch dark blue pumps.
The blouse was a little sheer, and my bra was visible throught it. May as
well leave them no doubt about the reality of my big African titties. I spritzed
a little heavy Chanel on to leave my old friends with a whiff of my new scent.
The guys at first were dumbfounded. 'Jeez, Don, we didn't know
you'd turn out looking like a black stripper!' Sam Flood said. I was hardly
dressed like a stripper, but I let that pass.
Artie Farrell asked if he could feel my 'boobs,' and I declined,
annoyed.
'Art, would you ask Chief Washington that?' I shot back in my new
sexy Southern black lilt.
Ronnie Watson had a serious question.
'What's up for you now, Don?'
Artie broke in, 'Not his dick, that's for sure,' and laughed like a
horse.
'Art, knock it off. And until I get new I.D., you guys can call me
Donna. To answer your question, Ron,' and I looked frostily at Art, 'I want
to return to the force after my leave of absence.'
I almost said, after this is over, but I wasn't sure just what 'this' was.
We played cards for a few hours, but it wasn't the same. Artie kept
watching my 'boobs' and, when I got up for a beer, their eyes followed my
butt around the room. I felt like a new girl at a singles bar, with three
dumpy, badly-dressed white guys (why did I think of them as 'white'?)
looking but afraid to make a move.
The question I expected came.
'Don, ah, Donna, how does it feel to be a black woman?' Art wanted
to know.
I knew I could easily pick him apart on this one.
'How does it feel to be black, OR to be a woman?' I asked airily.
'And tell me how it feels to be white, and a man.'
'Oh, hell, you know what I mean,' Artie said.
I honestly tried to answer, but I didn't know how to put it.
'Not so different. My mind is the same, but my emotions get a little
away from me sometimes. I've been so busy adjusting to analyze too much.
You probably heard that Angela, Sondra and Cheryl have been working with
me.'
'Who?' Artie asked.
These guys didn't even know their fellow officers' first names.
'Officers Powell, Berry, and Williams-Burton,' I explained.
'Oh. Those babes could sure help me,' Art snickered.
'Art, there's one way I feel different now.'
'How's that,' he asked.
'I think with my brains, not my crotch.'
We all laughed. At least some ice was broken.
But I spent a lot of time defending my new identity.
'Sam, there are over ten million black women in America, and many
more across the world, living happy, productive lives. I can get used to this
if they did. People all want the same basic things, I think.'
I had the feeling blacks were somewhat alien to these guys. And
maybe they had been to me, too, I had to admit. I knew none of us had ever
socialized with any off the job. I realized Gulfport, down here in the delta,
was over half African-American. I had crossed into that world. I thought of
the Mrs. Powell, Williams-Burton and Berry as my girlfriends now, and
Chief Washington had become supportive, like a wise mother. Doctor
Ajaratu was helpful in her aloof way. And of course, there was Derrick.
Not only my body had become black since the accident. My whole
life had.
I dumped out the beer bottles and opened all the windows to air out
Ronnie's awful cigar smoke. Derrick was taking me out to dinner tomorrow
night and I would have to get the house cleaned up. I knew he would bring
flowers and a good wine.
There would be no more poker with the good old boys any more. It
just didn't cut it for me. I looked forward to my evening with Derrick.
My girlfriends had advised me well. I opted for a classic little black
nothing lace evening dress, my sheerest black nylons and tallest black
pumps. Not much contrast between soft milk chocolate skin and the blacks
of my clothing, but it worked. I wrapped and pinned my long braids in a
spiral pattern around my oiled brown scalp. Sondra told me a woman's neck
and shoulders should always be exposed on a serious date. She had married
a real up and comer when she was just 23, so I always took her advice about
comporting myself around Derrick. Multiple earrings (studs, loops and
pendants) adorned my pierced ears, and thin gold chains were draped around
my bare neck. My makeup was dark, vivid and fragrant, shades of glossy
sapphire lined with purple on my full African lips, milk chocolate face
powdered and cremed, and eyes done for evening, with plenty of eyeliner,
thick lashes and blended shadow. I was made up like a showgirl at an
Ethiopian nightclub!
So much work went into a black woman's appearance. Not long ago
a quick trim at the barber's and a morning shave and I was ready for the
world. Not so any more! Now it was at least half a day in the chair at Mama
Jefferson's La Femme Afrique beauty salon for a relaxing, a wash, set, perm
and tint (longer when I went to braids), and I was forced to be a regular Flori
Roberts with the makeup. I made a truce with all manner of delicate female
undies long ago. I'll wear 'em and try not to tear 'em, I decided!
But tonight it might all be worth it. Our first real date, after being
partners and friends for two years in the Gulfport P.D., was heavenly. It felt
provocative to sit in La Maison Francois, the most expensive restaurant in
town, in a lacy black spaghetti strap dress ending well above the knee and
just below my cleavage (okay, you get the idea), at a small dark corner table
across from this nice guy. It was strange in a way to look down and see the
slopes of my big brown titties almost totally exposed in my most minimal
half-cup lace bra and low-cut dress. I had to remind myself that these were
my breasts. I was a sexy black woman, and couldn't deny it. It was a good
thing we were in a dark corner, because my dress, while I was seated, barely
covered my behind. My almost nonexistent black nylons set off my shapely
brown legs most alluringly. I thought my legs were a little thick, but Derrick,
with a black man's love for an ample woman, often called me his Nubian
princess. I felt an intense happiness chatting with him as we touched and
clasped hands, occasionally sipping our drinks. He had Scotch and soda,
while I still liked white russians. I thought with an inner laugh that I should
switch to the black version of the drink! The alcohol definitely affected me
more now. My sense of humor seemed heightened, and I gigglingly agreed
with everything Derrick said.
The waiter came by and took our orders. He was a young college-
type white kid, and I almost laughed as he stared down my cleavage and
cocked his head to check out my shiny black thighs under the table. White
guys could be cute in a boyish way, but they didn't stir me up and leave me
hot and bothered the way Derrick did. The Southern brothers definitely had a
raw masculinity about them that left my nose open, to use the old black slang.
White guys my age seemed like children now.
We drove back to Derrick's apartment in his restored sixties Mustang
convertible. It was night, and the sky had thickened with heavy summer
storm clouds while we were inside. Fat drops of rain began to pelt us, and
Derrick reached for the controls to raise the top. It wouldn't work! The car
began to fill with hard rain. It was as if buckets of cool water were being
dumped on us into the car!
Derrick threw his sport coat over my head and bare shoulders, but it
was too late. We were both soaked to the skin! I peeked out from his coat.
We made eye contact and both began to laugh uproariously! It was
hysterical, like a movie comedy.
He could hardly see to drive. Fortunately, we only had a few blocks
to go to make his apartment. When we opened the doors after he parked,
water poured out of the car! The violent thunderstorm had turned the
sportscar into a bathtub!
Derrick took my hand and we ran into the house, still laughing like
crazy. My nylon-clad feet were squishing, and I stopped to remove my high
heeled patents and pour water out of them. What a night. It seemed like
wonderful fun to the both of us.
Of course, I had seen Derrick many times showering in the
Department locker room, but this was different. Now I was a female invited
to his home. I was a girl out on a date, considering how far to go with a male
coworker and friend. I heard the shower, and knocked shyly on the
bathroom door. 'Come on in, girl. There's plenty of hot water! He called
cheerfully, and with some seductive amusement, I thought.
I was thoroughly flustered. Was I expected to undress and join my
longtime patrol partner in his own bathtub? The answer, of course, was yes.
I was soaked after the mishap with his convertible. My thin dress and nylons
clung wetly to my skin, and my normally well-coiffed black hair was a
tangled mess. I was a sight!
I turned the doorknob and entered. I saw his tall dark silhouette
behind the shower curtain. My damp clothes dropped to the floor, I
unhooked my bra, peeled off the soaked black pantyhose and yanked down
the wet rim of my panties.
I heard Derrick humming to himself. I parted the curtain and stepped
into the warm, comfortable spray. This was it! He took my hand so I
wouldn't slip and drew me close. I laughed with some kind of giddy
emotional release and he hugged me. Out wet bodies rubbed together. My
plump titties developed erect black-girl nipples as they brushed and mashed
against the big guy. He closed the shower curtain.
'Relax, girl.' That's what he called me now, girl, lady or sometimes
'Miss Thing.' I certainly didn't want him calling me Don anymore, and
realized I needed a new female name. I would check with my co-
worker/girlfriends about it and see what they suggested. The 'sisters' were
creative with names, I knew that!
I gazed at Derrick and couldn't help but grin. He was six inches
taller than me now and big and muscular as always. I felt weak and plump
next to him. I realized how thoroughly feminized I had become. He took the
Irish Spring, or whatever it was, and proceeded to soap my soft brown
curves lavishly. I took the soap and returned the favor, lathering his hard
body. I looked down. His big black penis was fully and massively erect,
poking and sliding along my soft belly.
I laughed, imitating Steve Urkel's voice: 'Did I do thaaat?'
'Yes you did, girl. Now turn around.'
I did as commanded, and he reached around me and lathered my big
bouncy breasts with two strong soapy hands.
'You sure turned out to be a healthy girl,' Derrick drawled.
'It's those good African genes,' I retorted. Humor seemed to ease the
sexual tension between us. I looked down and saw he had inserted his penis
between my legs from behind me, and the fat purple head was poking out
from between my chubby brown thighs. It wasn't explicitly sexual yet, still
play. I reached down, took the head and squeezed it fondly. I would say
what was on my mind.
'So THIS is what you have for your girlfriends. Do all black men
have dicks this big?
'No, I'm on the small side,' he joked. I felt him flex his penis a little,
and he actually lifted me up on my toes with it. What a man! His penis was
so strong it could lift a hundred and forty pound woman into the air!
I turned, slipping down from his dick, and kissed him deeply on the
mouth as the shower spray rinsed our slick bodies. I could feel friendship
turning into physical need for this man. I was warm and weak.
We reluctantly broke our kiss. He turned off the water and we dried
each other with warm fluffy towels. Everything felt right by now.
I briefly hand-dried (Derrick's head was almost shaven and he had no
need for a blow-dryer) my still disheveled mass of black Medusa-like ropy
braids and wrapped my hair in the towel, a feminine art I had learned from
Cheryl in the women's locker room. I was unconsciously imitating other
black women, I had realized. I now touched a hand to my throat when
referring to myself, crossed my legs as high as possible, and let my hands
dangle limply. I even tossed my head in that petulant ghetto girl way when
deep in gossip with my fellow black policewomen.
Needless to say, Derrick busted my cherry that night. Somehow my
love tunnel moistened and expanded between my spread legs enough to take
that entire huge circumcised black sausage, and I was a dazed and happy girl
under my fine lover. Somehow I gave no thought to birth control. I used to
be careful about that as a man.
Maybe, unconsciously, I already wanted his baby. I had noticed his
testes, hanging like big ripe purple figs under that thick hose of a penis, and I
knew that now, after our lovemaking I was filled with their fresh babycream.
After his last gushing orgasm, Derrick withdrew from me. Soon, under the
pretext of pulling up the covers I looked down and checked my vagina. My
pussy lips were covered in a puddle of semen.
The guy had filled me to the brim. I imagined his sperm thrashing
about wildly deep in my guts, seeking the big helpless ovaries in my fertile
black baby maker.
I woke before him, kissed his rough cheek, and arose to make coffee.
I put on his male-scented bathrobe (that was a turn-on, wearing my man's
robe), and padded barefoot into the kitchen. We sipped coffee and laughed
easily, catching a little of the Today Show on TV. I studied Ann Curry, one
of the hosts this morning. I used to find her attractive. Now I thought I was
at least as much of a babe.
While I urinated that morning (sorry for the unpleasant facts of life!) I
noticed that Derrick's semen had dried to a sticky glaze all over my crotch.
My urethra seemed for a moment that it had been super-glued with his dried
spunk, and I had to part my purplish pussy lips manually to begin the flow of
pee! Welcome to your world, Donna.
Angela, Sondra and Cheryl outdid themselves, throwing a renaming
party for me, similar to a baby-naming party. Amid a lot of champagne and
giggles somehow they came up with 'Deshauna.' I liked it. I decided I
wanted a contemporary African-American sounding name, and not a female
variant of Donald. 'Donna ' would have been nice, but I preferred a uniquely
black name, to fit my new self. If I was a new person in so many ways, I
needed a name with a new attitude.
The police department worked with the state and county
administrations and produced new identity documents for me. I was now
Deshauna Jones on my Mississippi driver's license, police ID, birth
certificate, and school diplomas. I got used to seeing a smiling black female
face on my identification cards. They reassigned me to personnel as a special
projects officer, which is a nice way of saying secretary and file clerk, and I
occasionally give talks to kids at the local public schools (almost all black,
and those that weren't were Hispanic) as a kind of attractive female McGruff,
the 'Take a Bite Out of Crime' police officer. I felt like I was marking time
until Derrick and I started a family. I had already received a significant cash
settlement from the hospital, paid in part by Community Service, more than
enough for a new house for Derrick and myself, and he started a college-fund
account for our future children. When they grow up, our babies will be
attending the finest schools, even Ivy League. Derrick would like them to
attend historically black colleges like his alma mater, Mississippi State, and
that's alright with me.
On the subject of names, we already picked out Chantelle, Derrick,
Jr., Daysha, and Booker (old-fashioned, but it's Derrick's father's name).
We'll give it more thought if the stork brings more than two boys and two
girls!
I never knew Derrick had such a romantic side. He sends flowers to
my desk at least once a week, insists on the two of us dressing for dinner at
an upscale restaurant every weekend, and takes me dancing after that.
Nothing challenging, I'm still klutzy dancer, but he holds me closely and
leads me around the floor on sexy slow jams. I just want to melt into his
arms, closing my eyes and drifting with the throbbing ballads at Cafe Noir,
his favorite black nightspot. Not many women have hit the male jackpot like
I have!
He can be full of mischief, too. I get home from the office a little
earlier than him, and if I'm at the sink drying dishes or talking on the phone
to Irma or his mom, he'll sneak up, reach under my skirt and give me a long
intimate feel. It's strange but exciting to have a strong guy's hands squeezing
my pantyhose-clad butt and thighs while I'm trying to talk! I usually break
into giggles, and admitted to Irma what was going on. She told me what a
lucky lady I was to have an attentive man with sex on his mind. All we black
women know what a prize a BMW is (black man working), and I have one of
the best. He'll never be rich, but he's as sweet as they come.
He's already taught me a lot, and I don't just mean turning me into a
good wife.
He explained to me about Kwaanza, and the black national anthem,
and what the Diaspora was. There's so much whites don't know about black
culture, but I'm learning fast. My girlfriends help me, too, overlooking my
occasional ignorance.
My recurring 'pregnancy' dream came true soon enough, of course.
After all those nights in the squad car on patrol with Sergeant Jeter, I still
spend my nights with him, now snuggled against him as his wife. Of
course, I usually get the 'wet spot,' after he creams his enormous spunky
loads into me and then rolls off, soon snoring. Men!
But it paid off, and Chantelle was born less than a year after we
married. The birth was not as painful as in my dream, but, pardon the pun,
it was a 'stretch.' (Deshauna Jones' sense of humor is better than mine used
to be, an unexpected side-effect.) Oh, correction, it's Deshauna Jeter now.
Taking a guys's last name is expected of us traditional Southern black gals,
of course, and I'm a proud wife with a large diamond wedding ring. I took
advantage of another thing about marriage: I'm a happy stay-at-home mom
now, caring for Chantelle. My cute little breast-feeding dark chocolate rugrat
is a joy. The diaper-changing and midnight-feeding routine is all mine now,
since Derrick still works nights. Even so, I feel like being the mommy
anyway, and that means 24-7. And more good news. Ultrasound tells me
and Derrick that Derrick, Junior is on the way!
I just wish there was something funny about morning sickness! And
if I thought my titties were uncomfortable before, it looks like I'll be lactating
for years. I feel like a Guernsey cow with these swollen, leaking brown
udders!
When getting Chantelle to nap I'll sit around and talk to little Derrick
in my tummy, flip through EBONY or ESSENCE magazines, or watch
videos on BET. I seem to have adopted my husband's taste in music. I'm
not much of a reader, and spend a lot of time keeping up with the housework
and laundry. I don't even read the daily paper much anymore. I get the
'411' from Sondra, Cheryl and Angela, gossiping with my homegirls on the
phone while I work on Chantelle's coarse hair, braiding, making pigtails and
attaching bows and barrettes.
You know what? Being Deshauna Jeter is fun!
All my kids were born naturally and without any anaesthesia for me.
It was painful, but a good woman bears her pain without complaint. It was
strange to see the umbilical cord trailing out of my vagina, connected to
Derrick, Jr., after he squeezed out of my big belly. When the doctor cut the
cord and the nurse placed the little black baby in my arms, I almost fainted
with relief and the sheer fulfillment of being a mother again. All Derrick has
to do is look at me to get me pregnant, as they say. This was the Deep
South, and privately I thought he was probably descended from the big field
hands of slavery days, considering his virility. I even teased him a few times
with that comment. Then he came back with something about how he could
make even a white man into a good black woman, and I doubled up in
laughter at that. Of course, he had gotten it exactly right. I shied away
from'slavery' references afterward. After all, this was the Mississippi delta,
and blacks had worked the fields here. I was sensitive to my new culture.
EPILOGUE: THE FUTURE
Derrick and I celebrated out fiftieth anniversary on April first. No
jokes about April fools, please. I don't feel like a fool. I've heard about all
the men who have become women, some of them black women, over the
years, and after eight children, twenty-six grandchildren and nine (so far)
great-grandchildren, I've been one of the proudest and happiest. And
Derrick, into his seventies, still sexes me like he was a prize stallion filling
his mare with thoroughbred semen. I may be well past the menopause and
need a little 'jelly' now and then, but I'm the same devoted and loving wife I
became after my accident on the job so long ago. I just turned 70, and my
'donor' DNA must have been choice, because I look like an ample chocolate
lady in her fifties. I let my hair go a little gray, but my dark skin is still butter
soft and without creases, and my big breasts and bottom are still fairly firm,
only bigger. I wouldn't have thought that was possible! But I've been at
home in my 'big black mama' self for a long time now, and I'm used to being
old Mrs. Deshauna Jeter, family matriarch!
Of course, after all the children, my tummy is a lot less trim than I
would like. It seems my pelvic muscles loosened for good, and a soft roll of
fat has taken residence around my waist. I'm still shapely, though, at 44DD-
36-46. My breasts have enlarged some with age, and many a good lace
underwire bra has been my friend since Chantelle was born. I look
something like a plump Patti LaBelle, I'm proud to say. And I much prefer
that to the wrinkled, slack white man I would have been at this age!
It sure is nice being an old African-American mama. The Jeters
believe in the Southern tradition of large family reunions every other year,
and I love seeing my grandchildren and the babies they're having. Two
former white boys have joined the family by marriage, LaTonya and
Ce'shelle (pretty name!), and they were amazed to learn I was one of them,
too! I think I gave the young girls some confidence about being loving
wives and mothers in our extended family. It's easy, I told them, just go
with your new female instincts and take it a day at a time! LaTonya is an
accountant, and met my grandson Ray at his CPA firm downtown.
And Ce'shelle, after doing six years in the Army while still a white
guy, decided after working under so many black female soldiers that he was a
black girl at heart. His platoon sergeant, a strict black woman, trained him so
well that he identified completely with the female NCO. Talk about taking
after a role model! The white soldier found it natural to apply to the
Community Service program after discharge. Like some transformed guys,
she wanted a uniquely feminine job, so Ce'shelle, now an ample caramel-
skinned girl, became a sexy black waitress at Hooters!
She met Jawan, Derrick's sister's son, at the restaurant, and she still
works there part-time. Not for long, though. You never see a knocked-up
waitress at Hooters. The breasty Ce'shelle, now Mrs. Jawan Franklin, just
came up positive on her home pregnancy test. My nephews and grandsons
have gotten so many former white boys pregnant, it's not funny! The Jeter
clan grows ever larger with pretty new black girls and their adorable children.
I sure catch up on the news at the family reunions.
(the end)